Jenny Heston

Passion, Purpose, Playfulness, Possibility, Profit and Promise

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Post Summer Solstice, Dragonfly Energy, Cancer New Moon and Full Solar Eclipse

Happy Miraculous, Magickal, Manifesting, Merry, Magnificent Monday!  It’s the last Monday in June, wow the month has whizzed by! Thanks so much to all of you who emailed me about your experiences with the B.O.S.S. (Book of Summer Solstice).  I am so glad you loved the guided visualisation and it was a delight to hear the rituals you chose to do and how some of you even did the Abundance spell! Whoot! Whoot! So tickled. Also, some of you have asked about the Solstice Reading Special and when it ends. It ends on Thursday, June 27th at midnight. So if you want to take advantage of it, now is the time.

Between the Full Moon and Solstice energy I felt very much like I had been floating in another realm, have you ever had that?  In fact, on Thursday I went hiking on glorious First Nations Land called SNIDCEL (place of the Blue Grouse). It was so incredibly beautiful and at one point I rounded a corner and there were at least 50 – 60 dragonflies dancing around me, it was pure magick! I then found a glorious mossy dried up stream bed and so I started to scramble up it into the unknown woods and as I got to the top there was a sensation that my vision had changed.  It was so strange, I could see everything, but not as I would normally see it – so I made my way back down to the beach and “poof” it changed back to normal. Okay, this is rather weird, am I losing my marbles?

Later on I saw way up above me what looked like a tiny trail leading off into the old, old trees, so I hauled myself up a steep bank by grabbing onto tree roots and as I got to the top and took a step on the trail my body immediately responded.  My heart rate shot up, I felt anxious and that there was something around me and then there was a whisper in the leaves of the trees saying “You aren’t meant to be here right now!”  Okay, now I am feeling a tad loopy!  So I scuttled back down the steep bank on my arse and the minute my feet hit the beach – womph!  Back to normal and surrounded by dragonflies. Can I explain it? Nope. Did I pay attention – heck yes!  In fact when I got home I researched dragonfly energy as I had just experienced it in spades! Did you know that dragonflies have been around for approximately 180 million years?!  I didn’t! Dragonflies remind us that we are light and can reflect the light in powerful ways if we choose to do so. It’s a Divine prompting to use the creative imagination as a force within your life.  When Dragonfly energy is in balance in one’s life you see things clearly, you feel more joyful and you are pure magick!  Wowzer, Wowzer, Wowzer. Glorious message. So next time you see a dragonfly, remember this invitation.

The next day was Solstice.  How was Solstice for you? For the first time in my life I celebrated the dawn of Solstice and the sunset of Solstice is was absolutely Divine.  I had planned to do both celebrations solo, but I decided to invite a group of women that I often encounter in the wee hours of the morning on the beach with their doggos.  Now, I love all animals, but I will say doggos are one of my most favourite, in fact my familiar normally has always been a doggo (oh yes and a crow). I love the energy of doggos, the pure joy they exhibit when they play, their loyalty and the fact that if something is off they know right away.  They don’t run around questioning it, they just follow their instincts. Now the doggos that these women have are super cool, and it tends to go hand in hand that if the doggo is cool then their humans are pretty cool as well, and these ladies most certainly are. So at 4am we all got up and headed to the ocean.  I had made crystal pouches of rose petals, citrine, quartz, sea salt and rosemary for each of them. The night before I had packed smudge, candles, pinecones to start a fire, salt to cast a circle and a plethora of little mini cheese scones that looked like suns. One woman brought gorgeous tea, another – oranges and so it went so we had a veritable feast for us.  I had also picked 3 calendula flowers for each woman; a yellow one to cast on the water to release something, an orange one for gratitude and another orange one for intention. It was such a glorious ritual and time I felt very blessed.

Then in the evening at about 9pm I packed up my backpack again, grabbed Danu and we headed back to the beach to watch the sunset and to dance, pray, offer more flowers and sing with the waves.  We stayed there with our candles burning until dark set in and I reflected that exactly a year ago I had come to this same beach with all my family (as we were here for a reunion) and we had celebrated Solstice together.  As the dark fully set in and feeling thoroughly satiated and peaceful we slowly wandered home.

Have to say it was an incredible day!

Okay, let’s talk about New Moon and Eclipse.  We have our first eclipse coming up on July 2nd’s New Moon.  This is a full solar eclipse in Cancer and the energy is related to leaving the comfort zone, managing your primary emotions and transforming the meaning of what is familiar and safe for you.  Now some of you may be saying – Jenn, what’s the big deal with eclipses. Ahhhh grasshopper let’s explore that. An eclipse  can generate an awareness of something larger, running the show and they poke holes in our ego/identity revealing things within us that we have been avoiding or are totally unaware of.  

Remember that the New Moon sets the energy for the month, right?  So the energy for this upcoming month is sensitive (as the New Moon will be in Cancer), all about what makes you feel at home, nourishes and supports you and the invitation to step up into more of what you want.  So this is where Intention comes into play, in a big way. Energy follows Intention, so set your intentions with clarity and let the energy follow them.  Please don’t set an intention and then the minute you are done start second guessing it, as guess where the energy is going to go? You guessed it, after the second aspect.  So my invitation to you is as we navigate this energy for the next couple of months (yes I did say that), and play with the Fire energy of this season – key thing is be kind and gentle with yourself and allow (note that word) the feelings to come up and just flow through you.  Some days you are going to be so inspired and filled with vim and vigour that you want to go conquer the world, other days you may feel like you want to hide out in a dark closet with a large bottle of wine and a straw!  Just let it flow and stay focused on your Intention, okay?

Okay, with that all being said – let’s crack on with the reading.  The cards that were dancing with glee to come and guide this week are the wonderful Oracle of the Dragonfae.  Now if these guides are new to you, let me introduce them (as that’s the polite thing to do).  These guides are the magickal and mystical that weave through the threads of every day, they are the Dragonfae, Gods and Goddesses who dwelt in dimensional lands….Eden, Avalon, Ys, Atlantis and Mu, they are Morgan, Guenevere, Merlin and others – fully alive and filled with magick! They are the deliciously magickal beings that have always been there, we just forgot, and when we connect with them, we reconnect with the lost parts of ourselves, allowing us to fully explore the gift of life on this beautiful green and blue planet, known by some as Gaia, by others as Dana, and by many other names.

The lovely crystals that bounced out after having a week of moon bathing and sun bathing (so they are super cleansed and charged) are:-  Snowflake Obsidian – a stone of purity it provides balance for the body, mind and spirit.  Aragonite – balances energy fields, promotes renewal, strength and confidence.  Last but not least Fire Agate – known as the Spiritual Flame of absolute perfection.  

Okay, let’s drop into our bodies yes?  If you need a bit of extra support there is a glorious guided visualisation for you, to help you slow down to the ebb and flow of the waves should you feel inclined.  

Otherwise just breathe, allow your breathe to slow and feel a sense of calm float over your body. Then when you are ready, invite in the energy of this fire season, the energy of the Solstice and when you can feel it in your body pick the card of cards that resonate for you.

Did you remember to pick?

Shall we go have a little peakie weakie?

QUEEN MAB

I am Mab, some call me Queen, and it is of your independence and personal sovereignty that I wish to speak to you at this time.  Each day you see and feel injustices in your world, and each time you remain mute, you allow the energy to spiral. Now is the time to make the difference, now is the time to take back the power the Mother, the Earth Goddess from whom we all were birthed, gave to you to safeguard and keep wisely – the precious gift of being on this planet.

Understand that you are energy and can use more than the old aggressive ways….use your energy and your mind, breathwork and what you call prayer, but what I call magick, to speak and allow your voice to reach others.  You are more powerful than you know. When you find yourself struggling within the cage of anger and fear, breathe love, and rest and revive yourself with knowledge of your own strength. Know the Dragonfae are with you, and will help to transmit your messages around this world you dwell in now.  For I know, and I tell you, that a reckoning will be made, and that you are a part of this magickal planet’s rescue team.

Be strong.  Be wise. Stay safe.  And change the world!

Mab is connected to our dreams, and she ensures that what we wish for, when it comes from love and magick, comes to us.  You are loved and protected by Mab, and you are beloved for your unique and even odd qualities, and that blending in is not the way.

Get back to the basics of enchantment and magick, reconnecting with the old ways and seeing them as eternal.  Understand the karmic history of your area, and apply the principles and lessons in the present moment. Know that your thoughts have energy, and can have an immense impact on what happens (think of the threefold law…).  Believe in your own abilities, and trust in the ancient ways of wisdom that run in your blood, as well as in the planet’s heartbeat.

DRYSTAN

Don’t be distracted – see behind the act!  

All my artifice hides only the truth, which at the moment you do not  wish to see.  I am always telling you the truth: it is simply that you do not wish to hear. I have always shown you who I truly am: you simply choose not to see.  The clues have been strewn about you….but you have decided not to notice their presence.

I can draw people into actions that reveal their shadows; and for that they condemn me.  But I have been their teacher, for they then know the whole of themselves, and thus have compassion for others.  Some have wanted me to be an angel, when I have never been of the heavens, and never claimed to be. I am illusions: but most of all, I am your illusion.

Look beyond, take off my mask, and decide to acknowledge the truth about the circumstances which you find yourself within.  And know that although you may say I have done you wrong, I have taught you to follow your guidance. Drystan is the Dragonfae bad boy, the cheat, the hustler and the fool who charms his way into your world, and then lets you down in spectacular fashion.  He’s a rogue. And the truth is: you always knew there was something dodgy about his situation, or this promise even though the glamour here is nearly irresistible.

If you are drawn in by someones charm and charisma, you may find yourself wishing and hoping they were indeed your hero (only in disguise!)  Use your judgement and place your own needs and desires first. Believe it when someone says they are not to be trusted, even when that is said not with words but with actions, or when there are too many contradictions.  Enjoy the show, but do not live the act. Begin to explore your truths, your story, and begin to look beneath the surface.

LADY OF THE NEW BUDS

See how my garden has grown about me?  See how my children, the darling buds, clamour for my attention?  They cry at night and can be so touchy during the day! I must shelter them from harshness and keep them in a safe place, till they are strong enough to branch out….even then, my watchful eye will look out for their care.

You see, so many people see the beauty, and do not understand where it sprang from; the rich, loamy soil.  The sweet water poured from the water-Dragonfae into this earth, the minerals of the natural realms, the light of the Sun and the shining sweetness of the crystal moon have all anointed my garden with their blessings.  And then there is me. So many see my garden, and wonder at it, but they do not see the work and the care that has preceded my domain. Its beauty is a result of love, care, natural growth and attention to each and every one of its inhabitants.  

When your growth appear around you, from the seeds you have planted, take time to tend this garden.  Enlist the assistance of like-minded souls, and just as you would not feed these tender buds poisons and pollutants, do not feed your ideas the opinions and energies of those who are not in integrity.  Stay true to the vision of your creation and truly take a little time each day to tend this garden, be it of love, ideas, little ones or creative endeavours, until they are robust and begin to grow into their own energy.  For now, it is the tender time, the time when the buds are at most risk from the frost of rejection, the poison of judgement, and the choke of cruelty. Be vigilant, and you too will have a garden for all to enjoy and love.  

Many will feel you’re fortunate indeed to have created such a beautiful Eden, but they will not see the care you have taken to grow this.  But I have seen. I have seen it all. Whisper to her your dreams and ideas, plant your seeds, and watch them grow. Allow her to inspire you with care for your own budding projects, beings, loves and responsibilities.  

The emergence will come at the right time, because the bud will be forced to flower at some stage – do not allow yourself to wither in the bud.  Divine guidance needs practical application and work. Action teamed with inspiration will create a beautiful, bountiful paradise. Work hard at what it is  you love.

I so love the cards!  (Have I said that before?)  Perfect cards for this glorious energy that is swirling around us.  A quick heads up, there will not be a reading on Monday July 1st as it is Canada Day and I plan on playing, dancing and finding cake to eat! Nom! So delicious lovely, have a fabulous two weeks, don’t forget the reading special ends on Thursday June 27th. Also don’t forget to take some time on July 2nd to celebrate the New Moon and Full Solar Eclipse.  Breathe, smile, remember to keep cool physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Have a fantabulous time and celebrate how glorious you are!

See you in two weeks!

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New Year, New Energy, Partial Solar Eclipse oh and WOTY!

Holy Hannah this is the first Monday of a glorious brand New Year!  So please let me wish you a glorious year filled with healing, health, happiness, harmony, glorious abundance and prosperity and may you take action on your dreams to co create with the Universe and make them manifest!

How was your holiday season?  Ours was radically different as we were all in different places and instead of trying to stuff ritual and traditions that we have had for 30 years into the new model, we created a new model!  Thus Xmas day found us playing golf on a course that was closed as we had been turned away from the “snooty” one that we had a tee time at, due to the fact the boys didn’t have button up shirts on!  (How he could see that when we were bundled up made me laugh). Any how it worked out perfectly and we laughed our tonsils off, followed by a huge International potluck – in other words pick the country whose food you like, make it and share it!  So we had Mexican, Thai, Pacific Northwest, Britain, Ireland and a few others! It was most interesting and really helped with this “transitional” Xmas. Oh and then played a ridonculous game that I made up (as my mother had forgotten the things she was meant to bring), but it turned out really well!  Then in a delightful fashion my lovely niece donated her “bugs” to me and I ended up spending a week in bed feeling like death warmed over and I couldn’t even bitch at her or beat her with a sharp stick as she had moved to the States! (Bugs, the gift that you can give to anyone! Lol)

Okay, oh my gosh there is so much to talk about!  Firstly, we have entered a New Year and this is a 3 year, okay Jen what the heck does that mean?  Last year was an 11 year (we are working Numerology here) and it was intense, lots of deep digging, unearthing and delicious challenges to help us grow and things being rammed in our face that we needed to look at.  With this year being a 3 year it’s all about Creativity, Renewal, Joy and Heartfelt expression.  As the amazing Kari Samuels shares:-  “There’s so much energy supporting you to re-invent yourself this year.  This is not to say there will be a ‘new you’. Rather, there will be MORE of yourself to share that you had previously been hiding from the world.  In 2019 you will learn to share your un-edited authentic self with the world.  The challenges of 2018 made it (painfully) clear the many ways you’ve been hiding the TRUE YOU, and suppressing that unique voice of yours. “

OMG, thank goodness, as I don’t know about you but 2018 was intense, lumpy, bumpy, expansive but certainly a delightful challenge!!!

Secondly, as we have touched on the energy of this year, let’s now explore the theme of this first month (ready)? If you remember every month there is a theme to the energy so for example November was – TRUTH.  Then December was – CHAOS.  This month the theme is – CLEAN IT UP!!!  Let me share what the wonderful Lena Stevans says:-  “We have some very big energies coming in that you will not be able to take advantage of if you are bogged down in physical, emotional and energetic clutter, old intentions, unfinished business, anything you have put off or procrastinated and should have done “yesterday”, regrets, unexpressed communication, attachments to disappointments and unmanifested dreams, persisting bad habits, and we can go on and on as the list is very long.

You cannot bring in the new without making space by cleaning out the old. It is very simple. We spend lots of time making new lists and talking about what we want to accomplish in 2019 but there is no room for anything new unless we declutter the past. If you clean up the past, you will have many more options about what and how to bring in some new dreams and experiences. And we have tremendous opportunity to do so.”  To read more you can find her here.

Wow, so we have big energy coming in and guess what we are in Eclipse season!!!  

Now if you remember an eclipse  can generate an awareness of something larger, running the show and they poke holes in our ego/identity revealing things within us that we have been avoiding or are totally unaware of.  

The first eclipse is a partial New Moon eclipse in Capricorn and depending where you are you would have experienced this either Saturday or Sunday.  As Astrology King shares this gorgeous New Moon Partial Solar Eclipse means:- “The January 2019 Solar Eclipse conjunct Saturn gives a serious and conservative influence but a helpful aspect to Neptune lightens the mood. This is an excellent solar eclipse for starting or growing a business. It is ideal for creative, musical and artistic projects and encourages acts of kindness and charity. With integrity and good intentions, it is possible to build your little project into a big business.”

So do you see a pattern happening here?  If we clean it up, let go of all those little pieces that have been dragging this is an amazing year for creativity, joy, projects and business.  Now remember New Moon time is an incredible time for really planting the seeds of intention, however, when an eclipse happens on a New Moon it energises these intentions in a much more powerful way and for approximately 6 months instead of just 4 weeks. Thus, I invite you to take some time (it doesn’t have to be hours and hours and please don’t overthink this) and really set some clear, strong intentions (or New Moon wishes) for yourself. If making New Moon wishes seems odd to you or you have no clue what I’m talking about – don’t fret pet, I have you covered, right here.

So the last piece we need to discuss is WOTY!  (Word of the Year).  Due to the fact that I may have overwhelmed you already with a lot, my invitation to you is spend the next week doing some homework (don’t worry you don’t need to buy funky notebooks and multi coloured pens – unless you want to).  Take time this upcoming week and really play with the energy and ask yourself “What do I want more of this year?” Now I’m not talking about – “I want more diamonds”, “I want a shed ton more money”, instead go under those and look at the emotion, the feeling state, the state of BEING and play with asking what you want more of and then next week we will unpack WOTY, okay?

Now that I have rambled on and on, let’s go to the reading (lol, some of you may have already done that and skipped the ramble).  When I asked the cards who wanted to come and be the first reading of this glorious New Year with all the delightful energies in play it was no surprise to see The Divine Circus Oracle bounced to the forefront!  Now if these delicious cards are new to you, please let me introduce them:-  “This deck is for those who find it hard to follow rules, conform, bend to authority and generally ‘do what they are told’.  May your rebel heart always be bold. May your spirit always be free. May you remember to live the Divine Circus and have fun doing things the way you aren’t supposed to, whilst living your most creative and unique divine destiny.”

The crystals that came to help and support are Malachite, Mookaite, Ruby Zoisite.  Yummers!

So delicious lovely, give yourself the gift of a few moments of peace.  Leave the phone somewhere else, close the door (even if you are in the bathroom) and just start to slowly and gently deepen your breath.  Feel your shoulders slide back and down, your jaw relax and your face come to a place of calm. Allow your breath to come in through your nose, deep, strong and down to your belly and then sigh it out with force – push all that old air from last year out.  Keep breathing this way and when you feel ready invite into your inner being the energy of creativity, renewal and clearing shit out. Take a few breaths with that energy and when you are ready pick the card or cards that resonate with that energy.

Did you remember to pick?

January 7th 2019 Reading

Curious, shall we go see?

January 7th 2019 Reveal

GYPSY COLOMBINE

The free spirit in you is rewilding itself, shedding social conditioning and past patterns of behaviour.  It is shaking off socialisation and emerging anew like a snake shedding a skin. The wild one within isn’t a savage.  It is raw, ye, but also wise, authentic, beautiful and with a deep instinctive knowing as to what you must be. Can a bird ever be truly happy whilst trying to be a fish?  True freedom is to be truthfully yourself.

Politeness and people-pleasing, not out of respect but out of fear you will otherwise be rejected, is a form of social conditioning that dulls the wild one within.  If you reject that conditioning in favour of rewilding, of getting touch with your true instincts and nature, you will exchange lukewarm tolerance from others for their passionate admiration and love.  And for those that cannot love you, that are afraid of how much life is in you, then let them be. They do not belong in your world, nor you in theirs.

It’s now time to let yourself off the hook, to forgive and forget, to allow what’s been to have been and to start again.  No regrets. No fear. No doubt. It’s time to heed the call of the wild and ask yourself, “What would set my spirit free?”

If you cannot answer that bold question quite yet, then it’s time to get in touch with the freedom-seeking, wild one within.  Dance. Play. Sing. Drum. Wear a feather in your hair and go barefoot. Let your instincts rather than your intellect guide you.  Swap the certainty of ego for the mystery of the soul. A new song wants you to dance it. Will you free your gypsy and dance to music you’ve never heard before?

WHITE DUCHESS

Don’t look to what has been to find your destiny.  Your future is bright and blessed. If the pain of the past feels a little too close for comfort, White Duchess steps in to help you leave behind the emotional storms of your past and move into her protection.  A time of transition is upon you and soon your feet shall settle upon sacred ground, and calm shall prevail, inside and out.

Are you one of the many suffering in a dark and stormy inner world of post-traumatic stress?  Do you believe that because there have been struggles in your past, and perhaps at times even great pain, that this is how your future shall be too?  Or perhaps you have been striving towards a dream and it seems so long since you began that you are losing hope of ever breaking through into successful fulfillment and a new life.

Don’t look back.  Let the past be put to rest.  Whatever has haunted your dreams, whatever has caused turmoil is over.  It is not needed anymore. There is a future destiny calling to you now.  It is time to transition through into a new world, into your new life. Trust her and believe in the positive power of your future.

PRINCESS VICTORIOUS

You are being asked to be a big picture person for the moment.  Sometimes immediate gratification has to give way for a grander scheme unfolding, which will ultimately lead you to far greater and more meaningful success.  What seems to be a delay, obstacle, loss or even failure now is a twist in the plot of your life, necessary for your gracious destiny to unfold according to a higher plan.

It can be hard to keep faith when you’ve been defeated just one too many times.  It is easy to make fear and doubt mean something they don’t; it’s usually something like being doomed to fail and so we might as well give up.  However, fear and doubt are just symptoms of fatigue. They are signs that we are feeling battle weary when it comes to life. To overcome weariness and create happiness, you are being asked to temporarily surrender your need to win – just for now.  Instead, you are guided to step back, regroup, replenish, be kind to yourself and know this: sometimes you have to be willing to lose the battle to win the war. That means being willing to go through things in the short term that might seem like failure without losing confidence, courage and trust that everything is going to go your way in the long term.

Know that you are strong and determined enough to bounce back and overcome difficult circumstances.  You will be given the power to succeed at the right time and in the best way for all concerned. So give in to how your journey is unfolding – even if it seems like you are losing when you’d rather be winning – but don’t give up hope.  Trust that the universe is strategic. It is helping you to succeed. If you need a sign to know that things are going to work out for the best, even if it seems like they are falling apart along the way, then this is it!

I’m sorry all I can say is Wow!  The cards, my guides are frigging amazing and if you note they all tie in with the energy and the themes of what is bustling around you right now.  Lol. Love it! So delicious one I wish you a stupendous week and please remember to make some glorious New Moon wishes (intentions) and also to perk more of how you want to feel this coming year, yes?  Sending you massive hugs and squeezes and also bright candles to guide your way and great footwear to walk it. See you next week!

Big Hugs!

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New Moon in Libra, Canadian Thanksgiving and It’s Good to be Back!!!

Happy Magnificent, Magickal, Marvelous, Magnetic, Manifesting Monday!! (By the way if you know of any magnificent M words, let me know!)   To all the lovely Canadians out there “Happy Thanksgiving”, a glorious time to remember all the things to be grateful for, glorious food and a beautiful space to create new memories.  We also celebrate the New Moon in Libra today, which is a delicious transformative New Moon. With it being governed by Libra, this is the element of air and this New Moon will feel like a burst of fresh air that will wake up your senses and remind you of what is really important.  As Lena Stevens shares:- “This is an important moon for anchoring balance, grounding, and receiving the support of your allies. If you are in the place of ambivalence around a decision, you could gain some emotional clarity around issues you have been trying too hard to “think through”. It is important to take some time around this New Moon and focus on balance. It may mean taking some things that do not serve you off your plate and replacing them with some things that will serve you better. As you take inventory of your life at this time, ask yourself where you could use more support and help. Set some intentions to receive the support you need from the allies and the helpers that can give it.”  If you have been looking to get out of a rut, looking to redo areas of your life or just looking for a greater sense of purpose, this New Moon is going to help. This New Moon is going to deliver the secret sauce you need in order to break through and raise your journey to new heights.  This illumination won’t happen straight away, but if you pay attention, over the course of the next few weeks, you will be guided and supported.

All I can say is BRING IT ON!  September was a heck of a month and I am happily releasing it like a lovely autumnal leaf falling from its branch, and I will say It is soooo good to be back!  Also, I would like to say a huge thank you to all of you who emailed, messaged or texted asking me if everything was okay and sending me prayers and love. That was so incredibly amazing and I am exceptionally touched and grateful.  

So briefly to fill you in somewhat on what happened, as most of you know on Solstice I set the intention to live by the ocean and a few other things, and wow did the Universe respond!  Within 2 weeks I knew it was happening, so I built a huge workshop to store my things in, found a roommate situation (with a woman who seemed like she was relatively sane)- paid her a chunk of money, rented out my home, said goodbye to one of my lovely boys and my dogs and moved.  This was big for me as I had been in the same spot for 29 years to ensure that my children had stability and continuity as they were growing up. Thus, I arrived on the Island on September 1st, super excited and nervous as well. I helped two of my boys move and get settled into their new space and then contacted my roommate about meeting and move in time and all the parameters had changed.  Apparently she had rented out my space to students, so I was welcome to sleep on the sofa for a while until they left, I had to now park on the road instead of the driveway and it was only 2 hour parking, thus I would have to move my vehicle every two hours and no I couldn’t see the space as she was busy. Wow!

Red flags sprung up everywhere as I felt that the rug I had thought was there was being twisted, manipulated and ripped out from under my feet.  I cried and cried and got rather angry with the Universe to be honest and advised this “delightfully manipulative” woman that there were too many red flags already and I hadn’t even moved in yet, thus please return my damage deposit as I won’t be moving there.  Nope was the response. No money returned, angry emails and texts and all sorts of crazy behaviour. It was sooooooo bizarre. Thankfully the boys let me camp out on their sofa for a month, which I was very grateful for as I was totally flummoxed and in a high state of fight or flight with a massive desire to just run home.  But I didn’t. However, my body responded by getting sick not just a gentle tummy ache, but unable to eat, felt awful and anxiety was rampant. I lost 11 lbs in 2 weeks. Then as that eased up I went and had lunch at my mother’s retirement community and ordered the safest thing on the menu – a toasted ham/cheese sandwich. When it arrived it was solid.  I mean solid and hard and guess what? I took a bite, experienced massive pain in my mouth and it had split and fractured my tooth! (Seriously) So for another two weeks it was a liquid diet and the weight kept dropping. So in total 15lbs lost and if you know me that means I am down to 120lbs at 5ft 9” – it’s not pretty to say the least I’m also massively phobic about dentists and normally need to be highly medicated, but I put my big girl panties on – my niece came with me and held my hand and I let him have a look.  Due to the fact that I hadn’t medicated he refused to pull the fractured piece out, instead advised me it was going to fall out any minute and so I should pull it out quickly otherwise it would lacerate my esophagus or fall into my lung!!!! WTF.

Thus, I had to ask my son to sterilise a pair of pliers and pull the chunk out for me, and bless his cotton soxs he did.  It took 20 minutes (so much for it dropping out quickly), but he got it out with only a mild laceration to the lip and no pain.  Talk about a trust exercise (and the fact I am not stellar at asking for help)!!!

During this time I was scrambling and looking at all sorts of places, some were glorious but highly overpriced, others would send me to a psych ward if I had to live in them, as they were dark, dank and dingy.  Finally I found a cute little old house that was only 3 blocks from the ocean and I could have it October 1st! Whoot! Excited puts it mildly. It FELT amazing, it FELT perfect, safe, cosy and just the right spot.  But hang on, I have no furniture, absolutely nothing as I was meant to be moving into a furnished place. Hmmmmmm.

So I played a game – can I furnish a house in a tasteful, functional way for $300?  Everyone I told this to said no. All I can say is that the abundance that flowed in was incredible.  Friends gave me lamps, dishes, kitchen utensils, cushions, blankets, candles – all sorts. I found a new bed for $60 which came with brand new sheets, an Italian leather love seat for $40 and was gifted a new sewing machine and a $4K leather, brass studded sofa! I was gifted a cute kitchen table and chairs and one glorious friend painted an amazing picture that hangs over my mantelpiece.   It was amazing!  I didn’t quite make the $300, instead it was more like $450 – but seriously, that is amazing.  So you are all welcome to come visit!  

A week ago I moved in and wow! I have a garden to play in, I am doing a 40 day meditation/prayer where I walk a 5km circuit bright and early through the massive park, down to the beach, along the beach until I find “the rock” that calls to me.  I then pick the rock up, park my arse down and offer up thanks, prayer and stillness. I think walk along the beach and circle round and back in time for tea at 7am. I have  space to work and create, a place to invite friends over and I’m not sleeping on a sofa! (Though it was a very comfie sofa)  

So my take away from this whole experience.

Most certainly ask the Universe/Divine for what you want, set your Intentions, don’t get freaked out when they don’t unfold as you thought they would.  I do think the Universe likes to test and challenge you to see if your serious – don’t run.  Trust, trust, trust, oh yes and when you can get out of your head, use the tools – trust, show up, believe, be willing to receive and take action.  Find the miracles in the mundane and know that the drama llamas are transitory.  

Now that I have shared all that, let’s crack on with the reading.  When I asked the decks who wanted to show up this week I laughed my soxs off when I saw it was The Divine Circus Oracle.  Why?  Let me share with you the dedication if you have never encountered this delicious deck:-  “This deck is for those who find it hard to follow rules, conform, bend to authority and generally ‘do what they are told’.  May your rebel heart always be bold. May your spirit always be free. May you remember to live the Divine Circus and have fun doing things the way you aren’t supposed to, whilst living your most creative and unique divine destiny.” The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come play are:-  Malachite and two Ruby Zoisite’s. (So if you pick the card based on the colour of the crystal this will be most interesting). Rosemary, Lavender and Purple Sage also wanted to join in, which to me is positively perfect!

Thus, I invite you to take a moment, a pause, a long breath and just be with yourself at this moment.  There is a lovely guided visualisation for you if you would like some more support with getting present and really celebrating you and the energy of this time.  

If not, just breathe, breathe long and deep and roll your shoulders up, back and down.  When you are ready ask, ask whatever you feel called to or trust that the Divine will guide you to the message that is meant for you.  Then pick the card or cards that resonate for you. Enjoy!

Did you remember to pick?

Ready to go have a look?

DARK HARLEQUIN

Bells are ringing from deep inside.  Something that once had to hide is seeking your attention.  It want out! It wants to be free! As you release what was once shut away, your discomfort shall turn to glee.  You are a spiritual adventurer! You are not afraid to go to the edge of what you know, of who you have believed yourself to be.  Even when before you there lies the darkness of unknown worlds, of undiscovered parts of you, even when you feel uncertainty, discomfort or doubt, you are still willing to figure out what it’s all about,  

So you’ve come to a place in you, and in your life, where you don’t know.  You don’t know what’s happening. You don’t know how to work through it. You don’t know who you are (well, not all of who you are).  You don’t know what you don’t know. You are at the point of not knowing because you are growing. There will be surprises. There will be discoveries.  You’ll feel awkward at times, like you are trying to see in the dark.

Don’t be afraid to let there be some inner rattling and rampaging.  You are at a time when you are naturally diving into the darkness for a healing purpose.  So ask the difficult questions. Do things you wouldn’t normally do. Experiment with thinking in ways you wouldn’t normally think.  Be willing to let everything change for the better by first letting go of how things are now. The messier your inner world seems to be right now, the more you can expect complete and utter transformation as a new order comes into form.  Expect the unexpected, for you were born to grow into what is happening now. It’s time to let the wild thing out!

THE PROUD PIERETTE

If you were proud of who you are and everything you have learned in your life, free from shame, guilt or judgement, what would you choose for yourself today?  The choices you make for yourself from a place of feeling good are going to be more loving and helpful than anything from a place of self-judgement. You’ve nothing to regret, you’ve learned a lot and you are a beautiful unique being on a wild divine journey.  Be kind to yourself. Keep your head up! Then it will be easier to keep growing and glowing.

If you feel that life is getting you down, or you should have, or could have, made different decisions in life – you are doing a great job!  You are meant to have learning experiences. What matters is that you choose to learn. And you do! In your own time and your own way, you make sense of things, and you grow wiser and stronger as a person.

If you feel any ridicule, judgement or shaming is coming from those around you – trust you are stronger and wilder and more beautiful and true than any of that mean-spirited fearfulness.  Let the mud that is being slung slide right off or remain stuck in the hands of those throwing it your way. Keep your sense of inner dignity intact. Never make yourself smaller to placate the fear in another’s heart.  Take pride in who you are. Be proud to be you! And know that this is a way to respect and honour the creative loving power of the universe that created you!

MEANT FOR YOU

You’ve voiced your intent, setting in motion a natural creative process.  What you want has been summoned forth and is now headed your way. Don’t hesitate, refuse to receive, or pass this gift on to another.  It is meant for you. Grab it! Within this new opportunity is exactly what you have been waiting for….what you have been wanting to create, what truly makes your heart sing.

What is rightfully yours is – or very soon will be – right in front of you.  Caught up in a spiraling wave of new beginnings, it is time to reach out and grab what is headed your way.  Opportunity is the universe believing in you. Return the compliment by accepting what is being offered with open arms and a trusting heart.  You’ll be glad you did.

Don’t worry if this opportunity seems to be leading you down a different path to what you expected.  All paths lead us to where we need to be. Sometimes the universe just has a better idea of what will get us to our destination at the perfect time, and along the pathway that will be of most benefit to all.  Trust what is happening. Accept that you deserve good things to happen to you, and don’t be shy. Now is your time to step up, open your mouth (and your arms) and say, “Thank you! I accept!”

What a glorious reading for this Canadian Thanksgiving and New Moon.  I invite you to use the energy of this day to really focus on all the people, places, situations and things that you are grateful for and to release and surrender those that don’t serve you.  Write down your New Moon wishes and remember – there’s magick everywhere, guidance and love everywhere. Have a glorious week and see you next Monday. Huge hugs and squeezes.