Shadow Quartz

Shadow Archetypes, New Moon in Scorpio and Samhain!

Happy Miraculous, Magickal, Mystical, Melancholy, Magnificent, Misty, Merry, Manifesting Monday! So good to be back, although I had a stupendous Thanksgiving weekend! The weather was fabulous, fun games were played, a huge meal was cooked and enjoyed and there was lots of laughter and connection (as well as candle making).

We have lots to explore this week, Autumn and the melancholy that can come with it, Shadow Archetypes, New Moon in Scorpio and of course Samhain! (Halloween, which is my all time favourite holiday of the year!) So grab a cup of tea and be ready to do some delving.

For some people Autumn can feel rather melancholic – with the leaves changing and dropping and a knowing that the days are getting shorter and winter is coming. There is a sense of going inwards and for self exploration, which for some of us feels rather challenging – we want to be distracted, doing things, sunny and bright. Aahhhh grasshopper, you are, but to see your brightness you need to welcome in the dark. Yes?

For me an inner burbling started a few weeks ago, have you ever felt that? It’s like an odd sensation in your body, being, mind, energy – the whole nine yards and you know something needs to come out and things are going to shift and change. The first time it happened to me years ago I tried running in the opposite direction to avoid it (let me tell you, it doesn’t work, it just comes back stronger and more intense). So as this burbling started I thought to myself – hmmm, something needs to be heard, shared, released etc. The first part that surged up was there were certain books I had to read, certain places I needed to go, certain people I needed to talk to. Okay, that’s easy enough. Then it got a bit stronger and stronger still until Wham!

Thus, after an amazing Thanksgiving weekend of keeping myself super busy, playing, exploring, entertaining, tending others, cooking – everything that was about others (which I am really good at). Monday I woke up and thought hmmm, I feel wiped. Not tired, but wiped, like a rung out dishcloth – nothing, nadda. Am I sick? I don’t believe so? Then I remembered the burbling and the message I had put out a few weeks earlier; the message I had put out to the Universe was “I feel I need to go deeper, I want more spirituality and awareness in my life”. HA! Gotta love how the Universe works and how it shows up (not always as planned). On Monday the weather changed from sunny skies to torrential rain and dark for days (and I mean at least 7!) Hmmm, the last time I saw the weather shift this fast and for a long period of time was the couple of days my sister was transitioning from physical to not. Gulp!

This time it took me dark (not weird dark, but into the shadow realm dark). I spent four days napping, lucid dreaming, writing, drinking cups of tea, reading, walking by the ocean or under the trees in the rain – repeat. I didn’t feel the need to eat as much, nor the need to talk to anyone. I played music, I wrote, I spent days in silence (which is so not my comfie realm) and most importantly I listened and was willing to see. Now don’t get me wrong, I used to hate Shadow work, but the fact of the matter is – we all have a Shadow side. We all have bits of us that no matter how we stuff it, ignore it, try and put glitter on it’s frigging there. So I played with it from a neutral place, not one of judgement, shame, blame – but a place to be willing to see if my Shadow pieces could be incorporated or did some need to be released. Well let me tell you it was bizarre, amazing, humbling, deep, dark and so many gifts tumbled out of the dark into the light. I realised that I have been playing from my Shadow Archetype. Now what the heck does this mean?

For me, my top 4 Archetypes are Maker, Healer, Writer, Lightworker – so how does one have a Shadow Archetype of those you may ask. What Shadow Archetype means is that you are still keeping yourself and your full Archetype on the sidelines to conform to what you perceive as societal norms and expectations. Something that at some point your soul is going to start burbling at you about. So again, for me, yes I write, but do I write daily? Do I write about the tough stuff (not often). As a Maker do I love to create, yes, however, do I only create things that I believe people will like (quite often yes). Are you getting this now? So one of the biggest gifts that came out of this week of bizarre transcendence was really embracing those Shadow Archetypes, offering them up to the light, welcoming them in and really aligning with me, my purpose, and how I want to serve and share. So if you see some tougher posts, or more calls to action you are more than welcome to ignore or it just might tickle your Shadow to come out to play.

The key transformation from this process for me was to be fully, completely present with all aspects of myself, even if they aren’t so pretty – because perhaps by me sharing, someone else will take a sigh of relief and know it’s okay to come out of the Shadows. There is something that has been burbling for me to create for over a year now to connect us all together – so as I have learned this last week – it’s got to happen! We are all part of something bigger and we need to share and encourage each other. We aren’t meant to be solo’s floating around in this great pond of life. Have you ever thought of what your Shadow Archetypes are?

On October 27th (just before Halloween) we have a glorious New Moon in Scorpio and Holy Hannah this is going to be quite an electric one. Scorpio rules the eighth house in astrology — the place that concerns sex, secrets, scandals, other people’s money, death, and transformation of all types. This will be a significant moon in the collective and our personal lives, and the energy will be powerful through Halloween week. Expect change that comes like a lightning bolt out of the blue. The change can affect relationships, money, income, and any other number of areas. It will be unsettling for some and electric for others. New Moon opposite Uranus creates spontaneous, erratic, and chaotic change. This highly charged electric energy can cause anxiety, impatience, abruptness, impulsiveness, and rebelliousness. So if you are feeling a tad tweaky, take some time to really ground, breathe and most certainly make New Moon wishes on Sunday. If you don’t know how to make them, we have you covered here.

Now isn’t it delicious that this New Moon energy kicks off just a few days before Samhain? (I think so!)

I love, love, love Halloween. The smells, the leaves, the costumes, the decorating – the whole nine yards! At the time that most of us celebrate Halloween it is also the festival of Samhain, the third and final Harvest festival where we celebrate with fire, eating and honouring the dead. In many places, Samhain coincides with the end of the growing season. Vegetation dies back with killing frosts, and therefore, literally, death is in the air. This contributes to the ancient notion that at Samhain, the veil is thin between the world of the living and the realm of the Dead and this facilitates contact and communication. This is also the Celtic New Year. Now I know some people get a tad tweaky when we talk Death, but we will explore it more next week with some ideas of how to really tap into the potency of this time. I promise you it won’t be scary!

So, when I went to the cards and asked who would like to guide and teach this week I nearly snorted tea out of my nose when I saw who were most adamant. (Seriously you can’t make this shit up!) The glorious Oracles of Shadow and Light, were most adamant they should be front and centre. Now if these amazing guides are new to you, please let me introduce them:- “Wisdom for Misfits, Mystics, Seekers, and Wanderers. Bittersweet…Unheard…Unconventional…Rebellious…Cheeky…Whimsical…Invisible. They’re not the words you often hear associated with the spiritual world, are they? Nevertheless, some of the most spiritual beings who have ever lived are those who have been most at odds with what we call the mainstream. They do not fit in. They have had moments of despair. And they know being truthful, and being real, is one of the greatest strengths and spiritual paths of all! They ask you to step out from the shadows, to no longer hide your light away, and to consult with an oracle that acknowledges your individuality and strange genius!”

How’s that for a warm welcome?

The crystals that came to play are:- Mystic Merlinite – is known to be a stone of duality. It speaks about light and dark, and the black and white. It’s a seemingly simple stone that can attract good luck and powerful magic into your life. It’s a stone that will invite you to discover the deeper and darker parts of your being. Moonstone – The Goddess, mystery, self discovery and intuition. Shadow Quartz – lies in its ability to protect and ground one physically and spiritually to this world, and to absorb and transmute significant amounts of negative energy and release it into the Earth to be neutralized naturally.

Wowzer, the crystals have aligned with the energy and the cards – very cool.

Okay, you ready? Come settle into your body, it’s safe to be there. Breathe yourself back in – long deep breaths in through your nose and out through your mouth. Allow your face, jaw and shoulders to relax. If you need a bit of extra support there is a glorious guided visualisation for you (just below), if you feel inclined. If not, just breathe and invite in the pieces of you that you have judged as dark, “not right” and ask them what they need you to know this week. Breathe. It’s all good.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go see what our glorious guides want to share this week.

VOODOO IN BLUE

This fairy is letting you know that it’s time to back off from a person or situation that is not in your best interests….and that you may need to be brave and stop being so welcoming of what you actually do not want! So, this blue fairy, waving her voodoo doll, is letting you know very clearly that you now must tell someone to take a step back. You know you have been overriding your instincts with what seems rational, with misguided desire to help and befriend someone who may not be particularly good for you.

Voodoo in Blue doesn’t mind if she looks bit nasty when she gives the back-off message: she’d rather she was loud and clear and that the person pushing her buttons leaves quickly. So, she wants you to start trusting your instincts. To start being honest above being “nice”.

You do feel like you need to stay away from someone – and to tell that person clearly to stay away from you. And Voodoo in Blue stepping forward to speak with you confirms that your hunches have been ever so right.

CANDY CANE ANGEL

The Candy Cane Angel is in charge of letting you know when it is time for some little luxuries that will reconnect you with your self-love and self-worth. She, too, holds back from giving to herself, as she is such an earnest and industrious little angel – but her message is always clear; it is time for some fun!

As she says clearly to you “You know what my problem is? And you know what your problem is? No? Well, let me tell you. Our problem is that we both feel guilty about giving ourselves pleasure. See this little treat in my hands? It’s not bad, is it? It’s not evil, is it? But can I bring myself to just sit down and taste every moment of its sugary sweet delights? No. I have to wonder if it’s the right time. If I have done enough to earn this treat. To wonder why I should get this when so many do not have a single candy cane for their own selves! I torment myself with these things – and so do you! How about we make a deal? Next time you ponder a gift to yourself: a massage, a treat, a spiritual workshop, a delicious meal, time to laugh with a friend, a long rest or nap, meditation time, a space clear…..know that when you energetically tell yourself “I am way too busy for that indulgence,” you are really saying, ‘I do not deserve that!’ Well, let’s decide that you do! I am about to have my treat. I now charge you with the same quest. Give yourself that which you have been denying yourself. You do deserve it!”

Do not rationalise or talk yourself out of it any longer. Step out of the consciousness of lack and into the consciousness of “I deserve,” and grant yourself this lovely moment of luxury. It’s time for some joie de vivre and enjoyment to restage a grand entrance into your life!

MEND A BROKEN HEART FAIRY

Here she comes to gather up your heart’s sore pieces and place a sweet bandage on the place that is most wounded. And this one tender gesture does more to heal you than could a thousand years of therapy. It’s time for small kindnesses to be received, for you to know that the little gifts of friendship and sweetness are the ones that will assist you most at this time.

Allow yourself to be treated gently, to be attended to with kindness, and to be hugged. Allow yourself to accept that this is a time when you need to take good care of yourself. You are healing, and on the mend, but do not undo her medicine by forcing yourself to hurry up and get over it!

When you have heartache, it is important to treat yourself well: take time away from the flurry of shoulds you are so often confronted with. Why not take some time to snuggle on the couch with a favourite old movie, and have a sniffle. Have a long, comforting bath, and be sure to make a promise to yourself to let close people who are worthy of you and of your love! It is not about being bitter or guarded, but you are a sensitive and tender sweet being, and some people are just…not! So now is not the time for harshness. Soft blankets, sweet dreams, long baths, and a reduction of the harsh energy around you are best.

Then the Mend A Broken Heart Fairy can fly in to soothe you….. You will feel her presence, and she will lift the pain, until all that is left is sweet, gentle wisdom!

Wowzer my delicious lovely, that was delightful to watch how it all ties together at this time! Wishing you a stupendous week filled with colourful leaves, crisp fresh air and the anticipation that things they are a changing. I invite you to welcome your shadow aspects to the table and see what they have to teach you. Have a glorious New Moon and see you next week when we really dig into Samhain and some potent ways to tap that thin veil energy. Magick is in the air! Warm hugs and cosy soxs. And Breathe!

Mother’s Day and De-cluttering Relationships

Jenny Heston · 1:01 am ·

Happy Marvelous, Magickal, Magnificent, Miraculous, Merry, Majestic, Manifesting Monday delicious lovely! How was Mother’s Day for you? I realised yesterday that asking that question can be rather loaded as there are so many energies that float around that day, there’s:- love, frustration, loss, disconnect, yearning, joy, expectations, connection, being invisible – and so very many more. It reminded me of years ago when I was in a lovely Kundalini yoga class and my most amazing mentor invited us to bring in our Mother, to feel that energy of safety, unconditional love and peace. Well, I have to say that was not what happened for me by any stretch, instead it brought up loss, abandon, grief and some very dark emotions which had me sobbing the whole way through class! (Gotta love how energy moves). Afterwards I went up and shared with her my experience and she could really hear how that didn’t feel safe inviting that person in. So instead she invited me to bring in someone who represented that mothering energy instead – so the next time I happily brought in my Great Aunt, another Aunt and a lovely older female friend. Which in turn created a totally different experience!

So this got me to thinking about Spring; decluttering our homes, gardens, workshops, kitchen cupboards, that one scary drawer that gathers everything from buttons, to one shoelace to a used bandaid. But what about relationships?

Do you ever declutter your relationships?

Now what do I mean by that. I mean sit down and do an inventory of how that relationship is working for you, what you bring to the table, what you receive, how it makes you feel etc. For example, I noticed a while ago that since moving I have attracted female “friends” into my life that most certainly want me to take care of them and look after things for them. Now, this in itself is not an issue if it’s a two way street, however, some haven’t been and there is a feeling of “Jenny will take care of it”. So interestingly enough, even though I could kinda see this I still kept stepping up to the plate, then I noticed that some of these women would be a couple of hours late for an arranged meeting, or would just sit and talk about themselves with no awareness as to what was happening in my life. Ahhhhhh, okay this is an old pattern from family of origin that is surfacing again. Thus, over the last 3 weeks I have really been looking at which relationships feel like a one way street and not ones of reciprocity, kindness, awareness and caring. Do you just cast them aside then was the question I had to ask myself. Some, most certainly yes! Others, I have moved out of the inner circle of relationships and put them more on the periphery, they are still there, but they don’t get the energy and attention that I had poured into them before. I am still open to them changing and growing, but it’s more a case of seeing if the other person is willing to put the effort in from their end, with no attachment to the outcome.

I will say, this has freed up so much energy for me and has released a lot of frustration and feelings of neglect. Have you ever done this? If you haven’t I highly suggest you do, it’s quite an interesting exercise. It also ties in with the glorious theme of AWARENESS that is at play for us this month.

Okay, enough chuntering on, let’s crack on with the reading. The cards that were most adamant to come and guide this week are The Oracle of the Shapeshifters. Now if these guides are new to you, let me introduce them (as that’s the polite thing to do), These are the magickal familiars, once the companions of shamans, witches, wizards, and wise ones – and now they are here for you. Now is the time for you to undertake a great quest – to rebirth yourself within this lifetime and this quest of evolution does not need to be faced alone. We change and we change again. We fear change. Yet it comes. For us to fear change is as foolish as winter crying for the coming of spring. Change is. Fear corrupts. These guides are here to support, encourage and help you through transformation and to teach you to let go of fear. True , deep change must take place for you to fulfill your soul contract. You may have turned from possibility to what you have convinced yourself is probable: You diminish your possible self, reduce who you are, and dilute your spirit. But even when you have sought to remain invisible and hidden away, and said yes to everyone else, life will find you – and transform you. You are never alone with these beings.” Phew! So there we have it are you ready?

The crystals that wiggled and jiggled to come to the forefront are Smoky Quartz – this is an amazing stone for grounding, leaving behind baggage and surrendering. Stone Canyon Jasper – is known as the ‘supreme nurturer’. It bestows a feeling of tranquility and integrity, by providing warmth, nourishment, and protection. Amethyst – aids in healing and intense spiritual growth.

The flowers are lovely Bachelor Buttons and Poppy petals.

Let’s settle, yes? Just breathe nice and slow, in through your nose and out through your mouth. Allow your shoulders to gently drop and nestle along your spine, like gorgeous wings at rest. Breathe into the corners of your belly and down to your toes. Then when you are ready pick the card or cards that whisper to you, inviting you to “see” them.

Did you remember to pick?

Let’s go have a peek!

TWO KITTENS

This magickal being is holding tight to two beautiful cats; both of them offer her growth in her femininity, independence, and satisfaction of many levels. Both of them are very young, very tender. She feels nurturing and protective toward them both. “How can I put one down?” she asks, torn. She is being asked to choose between the two, to separate one thing from another, and she is shocked that she must make this choice. When this being come to you, tune in. Ask yourself, your body, what it wants to do. Make a decision. You can no longer go on at this point attempting to walk in two directions at once. And that which you most fear – causing pain – will not happen when you choose. Cats are about your independence, your ability to leap high and to make it through many tricky situations. Choose. Choose now.

So are you having trouble making an important decision? You can’t see which one to choose? Which way to go? Both seem equally good or equally flawed? Hmmmm. We have come to show you the difference between two choices. You know you can take only one road at this time, and you know you must trust that that which you leave behind – that which you are telling yourself you are abandoning – will be safe and cared for. You will make it through this choice without feeling agonies of guilt. You will. The Universe trusts you to make the right choice! Feel it – you can now choose between seemingly indivisible ways. There will be a solution to this impossible situation.

For now, put one thing down and choose the other, or no real growth can take place.

LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD

You are changing the way you view yourself and speaking up and out. Others see you as an advocate for justice and fair play. You defend others by being who you are, simply by refusing to hide away or be fearful. By waking up every day, despite hardships, you are showing so many the way to live. You have made friends with your strength, and while people have mistaken you for a pushover, you know when the time comes that you are a strong person who cannot be stopped.

Like a wolf, you have fur and claws, and brothers and sisters who will help you if you only so much as call on their energy. But to find them, you must connect with the wolf within. It is time to travel on a new path, crossing a wood that seems empty and cold, but you will not be alone or as helpless as others seem to think you will be. You are not prey. You will have strong and unconventional allies. Like a wolf, you must be prepared to defend yourself, even if it means facing a fight. There is time to stand your ground and face the enemy. That time has come, brave one.

As little Red Riding Hood says – once I was hunted. I do no not hunt in return, but watch. And I am strong. I am myself, and I am proud of who I am. No one can harm me now that I have this knowledge, and with my mystic familiar – my lone wolf – by my side, I continue to walk my path. While I have lost some of my innocence, I have my life, my strength, my voice, my ability to stay myself no matter what others do or sy. I will no be a victim. I am not a victim. I am alive. And I will never give up.

THE FAERY BEE

A bee appearing in the beautiful natural world is a wonderful sign that true health is being restored to you. Bees speak of timeless wisdom – as in the ancient proverb “Ask the wild bee what the Druids know” – and are adept at creating shapes, patterns and, of course, honey, which provides food, sweetness, a natural antiseptic, and air-ionizing healthful wax, and can be made into med. It is also said that after completing the ritual of the the labyrinth in ancient Crete, the priestesses of Ariadne offered the initiates honeycomb to celebrate and acknowledge that all their needs would be met from that time forth. Bee can symbolise abundance, but, most import, it symbolises that all you need is being provided – and love is sure to come.

You ask me where the honey is, where the sweetness of life, the ease of life is? You sonder where the casual health and robust days have gone, and where the bright flowers and the sunshine have vanished to? No one took these things from you. You denied yourself your own needs and pleasures. I am here at all times, yet you have turned away from the natural world. For you to bring back its sweetness, you must spend time with flowers, ones that blossom generously – flowers of the plant kingdom and flowers of the human kind.

You have spent too much time among the bare-branched ones, who have told you that you will never acquire the luxury of feeling safe and comforted, but I am here to share that living life sweetly is as simple for you now as being outside in the sunshine for a few moments every day. The the flowers will bloom; the bees will come back; your joy and delight will return.

Wowzers! Choice, Speaking Up and giving yourself the gifts of delights! All super strong messages in this month of Awareness. How did your card resonate for you? Well delicious lovely, have a fabulous week, don’t forget it is Full Moon on Saturday. Wishing you spring flowers, warm showers, ease, effortlessness and flow and most importantly peace and laughter. Don’t forget you can get the monthly reading at any time in the month as it is a month from the day of the reading. The feedback has been that it’s a very powerful tool for navigating the four weeks ahead. Thank you for all your lovely emails and messages! Huge hugs and squeezes, see you next week.

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